hi all.
it has been too long since i have checked in with you... the days are flying by and yet there is a feeling of being 'stuck'...
the grieving process has begun and there are many long and sad days, i know this may sound strange considering that Shiloh went to be with the lord almost 4 months ago...
it is hard to explain, but the joy i felt from just being alive was hard to cover up. my grief over losing Shiloh took a backseat to my gratefulness. all i can say about that is: that was all God. He carried me through. praise God.
God continues to carry us - but the reality of losing another child weighs heavy on our hearts. this week is made more difficult as I approach Shiloh's due date 4/28 . Daily, i wrestle with HIS WILL...
therapy is going OK. i am having a serious shoulder issue and i am scheduled for a cortisone shot next week. hopefully, that will enable me to continue with therapy. also - and i know what a trivial thing this sounds like...but my hair is falling out by the handfuls - side effect of coumadin- go figure.
any way - i sound like a whiner...and that is one huge obstacle in my recovery is needing so much help. i have so many loving family and friends, but it is hard to ask for simple things - cutting up meat, putting on clothes, folding clothes, etc....it is all so tedious. its getting easier for me, but - lets just say i can't be in any kind of a hurry. ha - now i have an excuse for always being late!!
hey - thank you to all of you who continually offer words of encouragement and for your prayers. what a tremendous gift of prayer we have - i
can not thank you enough.
with love, Leslie
Thursday, April 23, 2009
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